Indifferent. I think that’s the best word to describe how I deal with my neighbors. They think that I am arrogant and snobbish. They feel like I don’t like them which is far from the truth. I am indiffirent towards them. I don’t feel anything for them.
I know a handful of our neighbors. There are just too many new faces around. I talk to just a select few. No, I am not being arrogant or a snob but because I just don’t feel like socializing with them. That’s it.
I like to keep to myself. I like it that they don’t know a lot about me. I don’t like them acting familiar or stopping you for no reason. People tend to do that if they feel they are close to you. I like to make it clear with them that I am not up for small talk and that I have no interest in what’s happening with their families.
I do sound like a snob but it’s also me protecting my privacy.
I love sunrise! It symbolizes a way to start anew for me. It’s been raining for days here from where I am. This is actually an old photo from a weekend getaway. I saw this and missed the sun.
Right now, it’s raining. Don’t get me wrong. I also like it when it rains because it washes away the dirt of the world. It makes the weather cooler. It’s just that I love the sun better…
When I was a kid, I loved daydreaming a lot. I used to daydream about having our own province where we have a nice home, nothing big just enough to have our own bedrooms and a porch and a swing made of tire in between two big trees. I used to imagine going to the beach and meeting new playmates there. Well, I used to daydream about so many different nice things a lot.
That doesn’t mean that I had a bad childhood. In fact, I had a really great childhood filled with happy memories. I just used my imagination to fill in the missing things because I came from a middle-class family and we didn’t use to have a lot.
You win some,
You lose some.
I guess with everything that is happening in the economy right now, with all the huge problems that our poor fellow citizens are enduring in each and every day, my blog issues become trivial in my eyes. I try not to dwell too much on financial issues. I try to stay positive as much as I can.
What do you think will happen to all of us with the rising prices of commodities? Where will this leave us?
Think about it.
I might be a snob after all! I hate people who are acting comfortable with me and my family. I don’t like it that a neighbor we hardly know would just stop by, enter our home and strike a conversation with my dad or anyone of us, joking like we know them for years. It’s just weird for me. I tell my dad not to be too familiar with these people because who knows if friendship is really their motive? I also don’t like neighbors who stare at our house like they’ve never seen it before.
Some people are just too nosy and I don’t like being associated with them. We don’t like being gawked at just because we are the ones who don’t mingle with them much.
It’s so funny how your mind flies when you are inside the church. It’s temptation, I am sure. But how about for someone like me who has a short attention span? Even an hour of liturgical service couldn’t hold my attention. It’s bad, I know, but I really can’t help it. Of course, it doesn’t help that the priest’s homily is irrelevant to the gospel or that it does not even apply to our daily lives. Or I couldn’t relate to it at all!
But let me say that whenever my mind wanders and I realize it, I would get my mind back on track. Sometimes, when I know that my mind would just wander, I would just start praying. Talking to God is more like it. I run a monologue in my mind and keep at it until the homily finishes.
I used to frown a lot. My mom would find me staring into space and frowning. She would scold me about it. She thought I was just daydreaming all those times. Little did she know that it was my way of planning my future. When I frown, I am deep in concentration. And believe me, I need to concentrate because my mind was a jumbled mess. Yes, even when I was a little kid and more so in my teens.
Even then, my mind would jump from one thought to another. I couldn’t focus on a single thought. Even then, my mind was already cluttered. I tend to daydream a lot back then. But it is mixed with my plans on what I wanted to become when I grew up. Back then, I wanted to become a doctor and a lawyer. I also wanted to be filthy rich (well, up to now ha-ha). I couldn’t keep up with my own thoughts.
It hasn’t changed a bit. My mind is still cluttered, a jumbled mess. Chaos rules in it. I am thankful I can still concentrate from time to time. I just have so many ideas and I can’t keep it in line.
Are you like me?
Camping. It’s what I’ve always wanted to do. I am not just too sure about my survival knowledge. Plus a bathroom is always a must to me. A clean one, that is. So I am not sure I can survive even a day in the wilderness. I do love the photo above. I want the same one either with family or friends. I can see myself waking up really early and enjoying a cup of coffee around a camp fire.
But this is just a dream, mind you. I doubt if I will go on a camping. Probably a backyard camping, sure. But in the middle of a forest… never mind.
I love reading. The truth is, my books and other reading materials are my prized possessions. I don’t have much clothes to wear, only pieces I need. I don’t have much footwear because I wear the same slippers again and again unless there’s a special occasion or a formal meeting I need to go to. But I have boxes of books and magazines and other kinds of reading materials. In fact, it’s what occupies my room the most.
So basically, you can call me a reading worm. Not a bookworm because I also read other materials aside from books. I am nuts about anything good and interesting to read!